Hello there, I’m Tobias. I’m male; in my early 20s, straight and eccentric. I’m finally beginning to accept that I’m really not your typical bloke; but that’s probably alright.
Although my interests are many and varied, my primary areas of said interest tend toward art; fashion and costume; and that which sits or sprawls somewhere between them.
I have a Diploma in Performance Technology, Majoring in Wardrobe/Costume; and you might say a Doctorate in being indecisive with post graduate honors in being not entirely sure what I want to do.
Welcome to my musings on life, fashion and other things. etc.
Apart from that I really don’t ever know what to say about myself in these situations. Once you’ve told people your name; age and what you do, or don’t do as the case may be, what else is there? Perhaps that’s all that is really required?
I don’t get out enough, and if we’re honest, I’m a bit of a geek slash reclusive artist. I’m also generally/socially anxious, which really just means I’m shy and worry about stuff somewhat more than I ‘should’, big deal. Anyway, I stay at home and make art in various forms.
So after that highly original start, lets talk a little about why I’m blogging and what I hope to achieve in doing so.
First and foremost, I have no real set goal, this is very much a lets see what happens, take it or leave it experience.
I’ve wanted to start a blog for a while and just haven’t got around to it. I wanted to blog for two reasons, firstly to do a ‘fashion blog’ because I find myself, as I said, fascinated by fashion, not in the glamor sense, but more in what people wear; what I do and would like to wear; and looks/designs/details that I find interesting.
I think men have been a bit too conservative in our clothing for too long. Its getting better I suppose, and various music cultures are certainly helping but those tend to end up with a certain uniformity of their own. It may be part of the macho, ‘Bloke’ culture, perhaps especially where I live, in New Zealand. A sort of irrational fear of being perceived as ‘gay’, which could I suppose have something to do with the irrational labeling of people as ‘gay’ based on the way they might talk, walk or dress? As far as I’m concerned, so long as other guys don’t try to hit on me, or tell me about their deepest darkest fantasies, I really couldn’t care less what their preference is.
Ah well, Let the Alpha male plow drunkenly into the distance, his bravado echoing from the hills. Let him run up and down a muddy field with dozens of his sweaty mates, all clad in short-shorts, as they chase after an inflated bladder before piling into a seething scrum of testosterone fueled all-male wrestling. I do try not to judge, but merely observe with disinterest and mild confusion. Actually, I don’t even bother observing if I can help it.
But sorry, I digress. The second reason ties in with wanting to write a book, and again never getting around to it. I’ve had several ideas for books over the years, mostly rubbish in hindsight. However one idea I did have which might actually be mildly interesting and perhaps even amusing, was to write about life, my experience of it, perhaps especially dealing with anxiety. It then occurred to me that a good way to get started would be to blog, collect what I wrote over some time and see if I could form some sort of publishable nonsense from it.
Now, in theory, both reasons are, I suppose, valid and workable. But the first has been done quite a lot, and I don’t want to replicate what’s been done before, often very well, by other people. Also I’m not sure really how you get around the legalities of posting pictures of ‘fashion’ from other sources. But I’m not ruling it out completely.
Then there’s the matter of the second reason, and on reflection I suspect that, while no doubt I could do it, and might even manage to attract some readers, it would be a lot of work trying to squeeze enough interesting material out of my life! Obviously it hasn’t been all dull, and not without moments of hilarity, often at my own expense, but to dedicate a blog to it may be expecting a bit too much.
So I’ve decided that I shall blog not so much for a given purpose but more to catalog my ideas and share my interests and experiences with you. Invite you along for the ride, so to speak, but make you no promises.
If you’re still reading, thank you. If you continue to read, well, what can I say? I’m greatly surprised and flattered. Thanks again,
– Tobias ‘Lockhart’